No Sleep Tonight

The daylight has faded into dusk.

I’m still hours,

Maybe even days

Away from sleep.

Sitting here alone with my thoughts

And a growing sense of dismay.

My self-worth was never truly palpable,

Simply a hallucination created somewhere

Within the darkest, most depraved

Corners of my mind.

How quickly the illusion has vanished and

Became the most futile of emotions

That is jealousy.

Naivety, much like ignorance,

Is truly bliss.

Reality has crumbled the walls

Of what I had created,

Giving away to truth.

Everything has become crystal clear.

Facts, they were not,

Merely fabrications contrived

From the coldest of hearts 

And the sickest of minds.

My cheerful expression is purely a facade

To fool onlookers.

Should they look past the exterior,

They would see a soul that is dying.

An abyss of pain and anguish.

There is no salvation for such a damaged spirit.

Now here I am,

Hours,

Maybe even days away

From sleep.

Unable to relinquish

Thoughts of my lack of significance…

Why I’m not good enough…

How I could be replaced so easily…

These thoughts unreasonably become

Tears which burn my eyes

And roll down my cheeks.

And I’m still hours,

Maybe even days away from sleep.

 

 

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